I have read many Buddhist books, and practice many of their teachings and even though I believe what they say. Their principles sat with me; they did not penetrate. My ego thinks way too much to let that happen.
It took the near death of my father to finally figure it out. Funny how near death does that, maybe its the rawness of the situation. Anyway, I realize it is not about escaping my ego, she will always be there. I must acknowledge her, but not let her sweep me off my feet. I must be bulletproof.
"Nice try, Ego! Good shot. But this time baby I will be bulletproof"