I have read many Buddhist books, and practice many of their teachings and even though I believe what they say. Their principles sat with me; they did not penetrate. My ego thinks way too much to let that happen.
It took the near death of my father to finally figure it out. Funny how near death does that, maybe its the rawness of the situation. Anyway, I realize it is not about escaping my ego, she will always be there. I must acknowledge her, but not let her sweep me off my feet. I must be bulletproof.
"Nice try, Ego! Good shot. But this time baby I will be bulletproof"
woot woot!
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YES!! MOST DEFINITELY!
DeleteLove the song, love your words about ego, love that we don't have to listen AT ALL!! It's like shooing that noisy girl to the corner and saying--"I hear ya, but not now please.."
ReplyDeleteGood for you Mama!!
xoxo
i tend towards taoism, and the thinking is that ego is always there. it is after all only a concept. ego = self-awareness. without ego we are not human.
ReplyDeleteand rather than fight it, try to transcend it, hate it, constantly battle it.... etc etc, we accept it. it's in full acceptance, in non-striving, that we shift things. i guess it's that all the above is ego driven. trying to defy or win over the ego is ego-driven striving! ironic huh?
with simple awareness, mindfulness, we naturally not over-identify with ego.
You are so right, Mon! How egotistical to think we can win over ego. I am really learning about acceptance and the freedom it entails!
Delete"Bulletproof" ....cool way to describe the "deeper self."
ReplyDeleteIt is that. Always.
And Mon hit it on the head. I think. In acceptance we can see that truly: "it's ok."
And I never got a whole lot from Buddhism either. I was a yoga teacher for many years and a student of yoga for almost 20 years and I look back and laugh at so much of the "stuff" (that's my nice word) that gets impressed upon a person when they choose to go down that path of education.
I think a lot of it actually can take one away from the whole point- to live more simply.
Yeah, I was never more ego- absorbed and confused than when I was trying to follow someone else's idea of "religion."
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