For real

So Much

connecting

intending

dancing

doing 

relaxing

Not so much

side-effects

100 degree plus weather

car with no a/c

nap shortage

Joining Mon for Keeping it Real, have a peacefull weekend friends...

For Real Though

Joining Monica for Keeping it Real

Heavy

a few nights of not sleeping well

a whole day of the blahs

seeds not sprouting 

babies with some awful coughs

my house in serious need of a good cleaning

misunderstandings

Light

enjoying a new water hose

getting things done inspite of myself

*creating a mama "throne"

being inspired in the kitchen again

several steps closer to my Etsy dream

my days "off" being a priority 

new books from the library

a visit with friends and discovering their magic hideaway

hawk, bear, and rabbit medicine

Ooooo its a long weekend you guys!!! I hope it fills you full of light and joy and gratitude for those who have risked much. xoxo

*pics to come when it be done :)

For Real

You guys know how important it is for me to share the real of my life here. To not put on any fronts and speak from my heart. Lately, I feel I have been heavy, trudging through truth, joy and life. Nothing wrong with that, just an observation. Ya know the whole not judging kick I am on.

Anyways,  in keeping with the honest truth of Monica's Keeping it Real, I must say I feel light as air this week. Yep. I ain't gonna lie, I got no yins to my yangs this week. What?! I know! Well, there are always downs to ups, its just that I think I was able to shake all the junk so well, I don't even remember it. And I don't think it would be very productive to sit and force myself to think of some downs, so I won't. 

How did I do it? Honestly I don't really know. The big thing I did was to remove the emotion during a situation. I looked at each difficult moment from an objective point-of-view. How was it physically making me feel, deciding if it was big enough to get "upset" about, was it fear talking. I did not get swept away by how I thought I was feeling. This really helped me to stay present, connected with my heart and not my ego. Will I be able to keep this up? Wait, that's my ego asking that. All I can honestly tell you is that in this moment I am ok, and as for the next moment, I am not there yet *wink*

So after shaking off the hard here's what stuck:

Being the Mama They deserve

The Badger Graduating from Kindergarten

Making/Taking Me Time

Being Present

A late night deer moment reminding me 

Making Plans

Feeling secure in my path

Little Bird's talking 

Loving strokes from little hands

A child's answered prayer

Garden Kale

My mama finally retiring, again 

shakin it 

I really hope you have an amazing weekend. Hope your ups blow your downs out of the friggin water!!

Oh and this for fun :)

For Real

Almost out of the jungle. My husband has been out of town since early Sunday morning and, though I have had tons of family help and support, I still feel as though I am coming undone. I have tremendous respect for single parents and those who do the traveling or military spouse on a regular basis. This has been a very trying time and may have been the thing that nudged me closer to outside intervention for my anxieties. We shall see...

Unraveling

no me time

no sleep

yelling

kicking the shit out of a cabinet

hurting my foot (karma)

my very first experience with the terrible two's 

not being able to comment on some of my favorite blogs

dragging kids out to store only to forget the thing we went for

no milk

Stitched

watching the Owl's pre-school program

meals cooked by family

love, love, love

my boys steppin up 

my papa getting stronger

music

forgiveness

surviving

D will be back this afternoon. I plan to hug his neck and then jump in the car and flee. NO I am only kidding (kinda) Hope you guys have a wonderful Mother's Day Weekend. I am taking the two days off. I think I kinda earned it :) 

Joining Monica for Keeping it Real 

For Real

This keeping it real series with Monica has been a great exercise for me. It has taught me to stretch my view and see "good and bad" times in my life under new light, something I feel is vital to my growth as a spiritual being in this human form. I have seen my experiences as positive and negative, highs and lows and ups and downs.

This week is different. My path has changed from it's usual uphill and downhill trek to level ground. While it level,  the trail feels either narrow or wide. Sometimes my path is so narrow I have to turn sideways, even hold my breath as I squeeze through to remain unscathed. Others, it is so wide I could skip, dance, spin and run open armed. Those are some fun times. 

Narrow

letting the grass get too long before cutting it

renovation project started and not completed

soccer game way too early for a four year old

feeling lost 

Wide

starting regardless

landscaping an old bed

getting some seeds going

motivation finding me after years of absence

quieting those nay-saying inner voices

hanging with my mama

catching some animal medicine

Wishing you all a very special weekend. Keep our Mother in your heart.